Let me tell you a sad tale of woe.

During my sabbatical I was a little lax on keeping up with my email (read: I didn't keep up with it at all). Yesterday I decided to tackle the great big inbox monster of 900+ emails. Backstory: I get my personal emails and my Dominee@BlessingManifesting.com emails sent to the same place for convenience.

As I was going through these emails I realized that most of them were random notifications from my favorite websites and newsletters. Once I'd tackled a whole month's worth I realized that I had not-a-one Blessing Manifesting related email, which all sorts of bummed me out.

Anyway, I trudged on because I was riding this huge wave of inspiration and motivation and I felt like I had a halo of rainbows and sunshine and glitter around me because I am Super Biz woman, hear me roar. So I chugged on and easily sent another month's full of notifications to the trash and then, in horror, it dawned on me. No requests to the SoulSisterhood? No submissions for guest postings? Complete silence for two whole months? That can't be possible!

I felt like my stomach took a trip to my toes as I frantically logged into a different email account and sent a test email to Dominee@BlessingManifesting.com. 10 minutes later I was still looking at an empty inbox freaking the fark out. I discovered that while I could send emails - I could not receive emails. I talked to my website host and they fixed the issue but the fact remains from May 11th until this morning I haven't received any emails and there's no way to recover them.

I was really tempted to sit in a corner and cry.

Hi there! It's been about three months since I last posted anything, which is a bummer. I do have a reason though, I promise. My Muse decided to stomp her feet, throw herself on the ground, and then refused to move. Cajoling didn't work. Brute force didn't work. Chocolate didn't work so I eventually decided to let her be. I figured she'd come around in her own time.

Took long enough, eh?

I'm back, and maybe better than ever (that remains to be seen!) and very excited for what is to come. I feel like a butterfly that just escaped her cocoon. August is going to be an awesome month and I have some great things planned. (Psst! Hint: The keyword is celebration!)

Until then, I have a question for ya!

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Take your hands over your bumpy love body naked
And remember the first time you touched someone
With the sole purpose of learning all of them
Touched them because the light was pretty on them
And the dust in the sunlight danced the way your heart did
Touch yourself with a purpose
Your body is the most beautiful royal

Several years ago I was working one night at my retail job when a woman, a customer, came in. I did that thing that we as women, as humans, sometimes do. I judged her. I looked her over and I placed value on her by how she looked. I remember thinking that she was was the ugliest woman I'd ever seen.

I know, I'm not proud of that thought or that judgement but I'm not perfect and I learned a very important lesson that day.

That woman changed my mind within seconds.

She smiled. She smiled and she looked happy and kind and radiant and beautiful. I don't know what it was about her but she glowed and I remember thinking, "I want to be like that. I want to light up the room like that." That moment completely changed my perception of what beauty was. It's not a collection of symmetrical features arranged in a pleasant manner, it's a light that comes from inside that you allow to shine outward. You give it permission to flow from you. It's a beautiful collision of happiness and confidence and comfortableness inside of your own skin.

No matter how airy fairy woo woo you may think positive thinking and affirmations are, the truth is that they have worked for me. They have helped create important shifts in my life.

I want to share some of the happy thoughts I cultivate on a daily basis. They're powerful to me and I hope that just reading them in your head brightens your day just a bit and who knows? Maybe some of them will stick!

Today is going to be wonderful.

Start the day off right. Not every day will be wonderful but there's something wonderful to be found in everyday, corny but true! Even when you're tired and grumpy and jonesing for those extra 10 minutes of sleep - believe that what lies ahead of you is going to be full of happiness.

Over on the Soul Sisterhood last week we were talking about the spirals and cycles of life and emotions. How do we handle it when we're doing good and then life sends us back to square one.

Life is not linear. It's full of ups and downs. Sometimes we're there and sometimes we're not. Life is not meant to be lived on one emotion, in one color, we need a scope of them. An expanse of colors that make us feel and that change us. That's life and those ups and downs mean that you are living it. It means that you get to fall down and get back up. It means that you get to show yourself how very strong and brave and resilient you are. 'Cause you are, so brave and strong and resilient.

"There is nothing more beautiful than the way the ocean refuses to stop kissing the shoreline no matter how many times it’s sent away." -Sarah Kay

"Emotional eating is the practice of consuming food -- usually "comfort" or junk foods -- in response to feelings instead of hunger."

I eat more when I am stressed. I eat more when I am depressed. I eat more when I am anxious. I eat more when I am angry. I eat more when I am lacking inspiration. I eat more when I want to reward myself.

I am an emotional eater and I am not ashamed of it.

It's not a deep dark secret. It's not something that fills me with shame. It doesn't make me hate myself. It doesn't make me cry. It doesn't make me a bad person. It doesn't define who I am. That my friends, is progress. That is one of the many gifts that self love has taught me. I am not defined by the things that I do and that whole self-loathing shtick is way overrated. If you would've asked me 10 years ago you'd have gotten an entirely different response full of shame, guilt, and self-recrimination. Emotional eating isn't who I am.

I never knew how powerful forgiveness was until I allowed myself to indulge in it. When people tell you that forgiveness is a gift that you give yourself, they aren't lying.

You don't know how heavy it is until you let it go.

A grudge is like a pain that you've had for so long that you barely feel it anymore but when it's gone you don't know how you managed to live with it.

A few years ago when I was getting into this transformative self-help thing I wrote down all of the grudges I was holding onto. All of the things that I was still pissed about no matter how long ago they happened or how small they were. It was a long list. Over a page. I don't know how I could have carried all of those things within me. I went down the list of those grudges and I examined them. Some of them were easy to let go. I acknowledged the hurt and why it hurt and then I let it go and moved on. Others took a lot of work and examination and journaling and talking, but once I did that, once I let go...

One of the many wonderful things about this big ol' internet is how easily it is to find inspiration. Things that make us laugh, things that make us cry, or think, it's all there at our fingertips, waiting to be discovered, enjoyed, and appreciated.

I wanted to share something that makes me cry every single time.

This poem, "B" by Sarah Kay is everything that I want to tell every woman, that I want women to tell each other. This poem mesmerizes me with the humor and the wit and the beautiful imagery. I hope that you enjoy it! Feel free to share with me in the comments your thoughts. What things would you, or do you, tell your daughter?

What do you want every woman to know?

"But getting the wind knocked out of you is the only way to remind your lungs how much they like the taste of air." - Sarah Kay